i call it a chance

i can´t believe it is raining. can you? i hope winter isn´t over yet. shouldn´t be. speaking of winter... and snow... i went snowboarding this friday! with my brother. WITH MY BROTHER. we never go anywhere together. it was a success. i am a beginner, but i bet i can reach the level of Shaun White soon, right?

moving on to the fashion show that is in 3 DAYS ALREADY! i am nervous. i have two models, but five outfits. that doesn´t sound good. looks like i am going to have to get my knife out and just grab some more girls... i am just kidding. but really....... i have no idea who follows this nonsense, but if you live in Rakvere and are kind of my size AND want to model for me, then you should totally get at me. hehe, i have a feeling this isn´t going to work, but at least i am trying.

so yes, i am done with all the five pieces. but to be completely honest, i am not very sure about myself doing this anymore.. i don´t know why. not that i am quitting. hell no! maybe i am just nervous, because it is my first time taking part of a fashion show everrrrrrrrrr. either way, i have literally worked my ass off for this, and now it really is time. could i call this "a chance"? i mean, it is what i like to do, and i actually have a chance to show my stuff. i am not going for the win. not at all. it would kick butt if some people would at least remember my name after the show. or remember a dress made by me.. anything. yes, i am trying to get myself out there in the market. it is a chance. 

enough of the whine. you are not supposed to feel sorry for me or anything. just show up if you can and support all the contestants. we will rock it all together!

one more note. i am on stage last but one. don´t even know whether to laugh or cry. meh.

so this is how i spent my break. sewing, sewing, sewing. my poor fingers 8( now it is just back to school tomorrow, and getting ready for the show this week.

oh snap.